Today has been a good day. I've been getting things done and making plans for my future. It's been a good day so far.
This is what I've accomplished so far:
-Moved my bed
-[I'm in the process of] reorganizing my bedroom
-Doing a massive amount of laundry
I still have to:
-Do the dishes
-Clean the bathroom
-Pilates
-Go on a walk
-Clean my room
-Put away laundry
-Clean out closet
As I said before I've been making plans for the future to. I've been spending a lot of time thinking about what I want out of life and what I need to do to get it.
What I want:
-Nice car
-Nice house
-Lose weight
-Live in Ireland
-Fall in love
-Marriage
-Kids
-Successful career
-Dying an old woman with very few/no regrets
For the first time in my life I look at that list and I feel confident that I can have everything on it and also so much more. I'm really looking forward to getting on with my life. I'm really looking forward to becoming the woman that I know is living somewhere inside me. A year ago, sitting here in my bedroom looking at that list and looking at the chaos that have overtaken my usually fairly tidy bedroom would've overwhelmed me to the point of hysteria. Now, I feel calm and happy looking at the mess that is my life and my bedroom, because I can see the bigger picture. The big beautiful picture that will be there once I get it all sorted out. There might be some things [or people] that I don't need anymore that I'll have to get rid of to make room for the things [or people] that I do. In my life, my heart, and my bedroom there might be space being taken up by things, people, old relationships/friendships that I don't need, don't want, or have no use for anymore. I'll have to put those things in the pile of things to be disposed of and move on. I'm looking forward to having room to organize my life and fill it with the things [people] I need.
Funny how I can turn a simple chore into a metaphor for my life.
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