I was not built to break, I didn't know my own strength

Today was a very difficult day. I spent the first two hours of work trying not to fall asleep at my desk. Then, I had some iced green tea (brewed) and that perked me up until lunch time. Then we ate lunch and got back to work. I worked until 4:15, then my dad picked me up and took me home because my mom had an appointment for this hair study she's doing after work. Then we got home and fed the dog. After that, I took the dog for a walk. It went very uickly today but it was so unbearably hot. It took about 50 minutes and we even stopped at the tennis court at the park. I let Cocoa run around in there for a while to burn off some extra energy. Then we came home, Dad and I had dinner, and then I came up to my cave (bedroom) and watched TV and chatted with friends. Then my mom came home and we got into a HUGE fight.

I'm so sick of living here with them and their stupid dog that doesn't listen. Only 39 days until I move back to school. Then i have to find a good job so I can find a place up there for next summer so we don't have a repeat of the past two months. I'm so sad that I can't move back home for my first 21 summer but that's how life goes when your parents hate/resent your entire existence. They hate my clothes, my friends, my car, my job (not my paycheck, though), the things I choose to spend my time doing, everything. It's so frustrating. They don't listen when I talk and when they do they constantly interrupt me to yell at the dog or do something else.

I'm so tempted to just disappear into the night with all of my stuff, however, I have to vehicle to run away with and my car isn't big enough for all of my stuff. I'm so frustrated. This is how I was feeling before I started school last fall/winter, trapped, suffocated. I need to get out of here. I'm stuck.

I'm tired of being controlled, belittled, harrassed, disrespected, used, bossed around, etc.

Oh well, tomorrow is another day. I just won't speak to either of them unless I have to. That might just be the best option for everyone right now.

It's really sad that it had to come to this.