Not sure how to react

Lately I've been hearing different feedback about my appearance and I'm not quite sure how to react to it. I know that I'm losing weight and gaining confidence but sometimes comments still sting/shock me.

1) "BBW Club (Big, Beautiful Woman Club)"- My friend, Joe, (who couldn't be sweeter to me and has made it clear that he doesn't care about my size that he thinks I'm beautiful) refers to me and my best friend, Kate, as the "Big, Beautiful Women Club", which I'm sure he means as a compliment. However, Kate is not as big as I am. She's 5'2" and I think she weighs about 160 pounds. For some reason, this comment stung. Yes, I am big, and I am beautiful, and obviously I'm a woman. I don't know why but this has really been bothering me. I think it is because it is coming from a person who claims that my weight isn't an issue for them, and it seems to be a focal point now.

2) "Yeah, you were huge."- It's always great hearing about how much better you look when losing weight but hearing that you were "huge" before doesn't help. I still feel huge. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing this giant, gelatinous blob where I always expect to see this beautiful, thin girl (that's how I feel I look), then I just want to cry or vomit because I am seeing what other people see when they look at me. No wonder I get rejected.

All of this aside, I've been having a great day. My neck (whiplash) is much better, still hurts but it's getting there. Work went by quickly and I'm feeling super motivated to lose this weight. I went on a 2-mile walk with Cocoa after I got home from work.

Starting today I am giving myself a partial "Do-over" on the diet and exercise plan. I'm going to go at this hardcore. I'm taking the next 44 days and turning them into "Addy's Summer Fat Camp Boot Camp 2010". I'm going to be militant with myself.

"Addy's Summer Fat Camp Boot Camp 2010"
Walk everyday
Pilates MWF
Ab Routine TThSa
Eat 1300-1500 Calories per day
Drink 64 oz of water everyday
No soda
Stretch everday
Blog everyday
Spark everyday