I can't be tamed.

My life has been really awful up until about a month ago. Then, all of a sudden, it all turns around: I got REALLY good grades, my body is shrinking, stuff with friends is good, and then there's this beautiful boy who has... well, I'm going to call it an interest in me. I'm not really sure what's going on there. It's progressing and changing everyday and I'm not sure what to think, we'll see as the summer goes on what happens.

It's been hard for me to notice but I've been hearing how much thinner I look lately, A LOT. My friend, Libby, said I look fantastic the other day and yesterday morning Katie told me that I looked "so skinny". I had to make photo comparisons to really see the change. This is me, 18 pounds lighter/thinner than I was in Feb/March of 2010. It feels so good. What do you think?

In the beginning of April I bought new jeans for my Godson, Ronny's, baptism and they were 20s! I've been in a 22 for at least the past two years. Now, a little less than 3 months later, they are falling off of me. I'm still a little too big for 18s but I think in about 5-10 more pounds I can move down a size. :)

I'm just really looking forward to getting thinner and healthier because if my life is this good right now, I can't imagine how things are going to fall together for me when I'm where I want to be.

I weighed myself yesterday and it's official: I've lost 20 pounds! :) I've never lost this much weight before. I'm overjoyed. This means I only have 10 pounds left to go until I reach my "Back to school" weight goal. :) I honestly think I can do another 15-20.

And last night I was talking to a friend and apparently her younger sister, who is just BEAUTIFUL, told her randomly that "Addy is drop dead gorgeous. I know that once she's where she wants to be she's gonna see it too." I almost started crying. What a sweet thing to say. I think this touched me so much because I'm not very close with this girl. Of course your friends are going to think you're beautiful/pretty/etc but for someone (especially someone as pretty as this girl is [think Taylor Swift but prettier]) that you're not that close to to say that. It made me so happy.

I was talking to Libby last week and I was telling her now that I'm getting smaller that I've been feeling beautiful and even a little sexy and that made her so happy. She told me that I'm starting to see what everyone else sees. I am really loving this feeling. I'm starting to feel less and less like the "Fat Girl". I'm excited.